January 9th, 2024, 9:03 PM CST
I swear the moon and stars shine just for you
January 9th, 2024, 9:16 AM CST
I went to one of the secret places yesterday and saw someone else's footprints
there (see above: my own, much smaller footprints for reference), so I'm not the only
one who goes there, it seems. Honestly I'm probably not supposed to be there but
whatever. I'm not technically doing anything wrong if I'm never caught lol
January 7th, 2024, 4:26 AM CST
This except I haven't met u yet lol
January 2nd, 2024, 1:?? AM CST
I wonder what you're up to right now. Probably sleeping TBH but you never know. How are
you doing
December 30th, 2023, 3:04 AM CST
And it's not your fault, of course. I'm just delusional lol
December 30th, 2023, 2:46 AM CST
I always thought I would have met you by now
December 26th, 2023, 3:20 AM
What if we dressed up as Twilight Sparkle and Mordecai... just kidding... unless???
December 25th, 2023, 12:40 AM CST
Admittedly, there is some part of me that hopes we'll never meet. I don't like people
existing in my space and I'm worried you'll be no different on the off chance that
A. you even exist in the first place; and B. I ever meet you. That same part of me,
despite the fact that I specifically made this part of the website for you, also
hopes you'll never see it. I think it's the loneliness and its wretched effects, plus
the knowledge that I've really fucked myself over in terms of showing someone
absolutely everything by creating this website and thus far intending to keep it
up forever.
December 21st, 2023, 2:37 AM CST
Sometimes I imagine you finding all this and becoming fascinated by it all and
then, say, recognizing the bridge in the background of the secret place photos as
the one at your own school and setting out to find me. That'll never happen, of
course, but a girl can dream.
☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆
I also want to show you the mall at sunset. Before the sun started setting at 4 PM
I saw it all the time from the transit center on my way to choir and often found
myself wishing you were there to see it, too, because it was so pretty, even
though it was, in fact, Literally just my local half-dead mall (specifically
viewed from the dead side) against a colorful backdrop.
...
I suppose there is a beauty in that, in a melancholic sort of way.
December 14th, 2023, 1:43 AM CST
I want to go out into the forest with you and howl at the moon. Like, really bad.
I want to go places with you at night where we're the only ones around. And of
course I realize my loneliness probably feels much greater right now because it's
1 in the morning and I'm tired but
